Nobody no frds I can call on when I need

Well folks, I guess you guys know what have been going on.

I have taken heavy psy meds for a month and the voice doesn't stop talking nor stop telling me lies. They said gg to send me Subway sandwich, potato chips, potato wedges, Mcspicy double but nothing came! 

Then the nuts voices promised of lucrative jobs around the world that pays me 10grands a month excluding incentives and commissions, paid ALs, global travelling and endless tequila sunrises round the world that NEVER HAPPENED!

I'M SO HUNGRY FOR SALES AND MEGA CONTRACTS & of course my endless tequila sunrises! Where's the jobs?! 

But before that, this nutty place is said to be trying hard to give me the 2nd injections next week.

Such wicked attempts in the planning! 

Then recently, I have a parcel to collect, but found none of my family members are reliable. I hated it most when my sibling just randomly gave me an ubiquitous answer if she's going to help though eventually she did that it makes me realise we truly need the section for running my errands column in free no service no cost portals like the good old Gumtree! 

No frds are available to help me do a simple deed.

It's really pathetic indeed, I have nobody I can call upon to rely on when I truly need.

I tried posting on Gumtree looking for paid random run my errand services but Gumtree is no longer available. I searched in carousel and there's no random run my errand services section where people can get paid to run random errands for some situations like mine, some day. 

It's kinda sad though, that everything once free and provided a great service for the community are all gone! 

Then left w no choice, I have to approach Jovan all over after exhausting my frds, family and acquaintances list. 

Fortunately he helped, thank god. 

So I decided in future, I will keep random ONS plugs in hand just in case I needed some errands run for me like that. And I will flirt with them all over. 

However, I do wish though that the mental nuts don't waste my time at the asylum. 

FUND MY WORLD TRAVEL WITH - COMMISSIONS EARNED THAT I DESERVED!

My utmost Apologies to SFO! 

For now i will not be going to SFO anytime soon though but since the Singapore teams and probably the other world over said the show will go on, pls do welcome them! ☝😂

Nevertheless, i am just thinking about how i can set up a bank account and start collecting commissions from the SG Teams and the World's teams whenever they acquired any other businesses just to "compete" with me? So i can continue to use that money to fund my travel AROUND THE WORLD! 😂😂😂

What do you think?? 😂

Wondering What's up for me at SFO

It's Thursday!

As i am trying to find out a little more about the city of SFO, my mind repeatedly kept telling it is BORING AND I YAWN ALL THE TIME.

My mind is telling me all the time that this place is just a sleepy little dead ghost town with nothing going on and i will be bored to death.

Perhaps. Nevertheless, i am already booked and we shall see.

Yesternight in my most grandiose dreaming - i dreamt that i have been approached by UCLA for some research assistant job or something and that i will FOREVER BE ABLE TO STAY FOREVER IN STATES. 

You know what? My country Singapore - offers Degrees to the minorities with only GCE N Level education - because they deserved it and it is a move to help these people move further up in life so they can earn more salary in future, however, they do not have any hats. And so, they do not wear their graduation hats.

I am just wondering if BCU or all other UK universities or all other TOP AMERICAN UNIVERSITIES - would also consider conferring me a Masters - and i shall proudly embrace that to show my fellow countrymen and the world over - that's the society, community and universities - influencing me so much, in fact, way too much about acquired intelligence and all other knowledge of the world (of course minus all my other bags of yesteryears' fluffy junks and some burnt ash trays). Hilarious.

Know what,, why don't you guys all come over to play with me?

At least, i am something to some community, in fact, a huge communities out here - who believe i am worthy.

Then i woke up this morning to a harsh reality that i am just a disappointed jobless cookie stuck in the same terrible place that abuses me mentally and sometimes physically - where i have no ability to get out of. Terribly Tragic. All i have was just a 2plus weeks of vacation in a sleepy dead little old seaside town.

SFO, why don't you offer me something? I'm not particularly good at pestering nor asking, be it jobs, men, love, romance or rewards that i deserved!

Trim and Fit.

There's another point i would like people to know, that is - i have in my mind, an ideal size i would like to be - trim and fit looking healthy normal sane person that's about 58-60kg for someone at 5ft4. 

So, even if there are many pretty clothes and shoes later in other beautiful nice places where i will be going, i WILL NOT BE BUYING ANY even if they are really great buys at incredible prices.

I am commited towards seeing myself TRIM AND FIT ALL OVER AND MENTALLY WELL AND SANE. That's all.

ALL I Want is to be - Free from PSYCHOS MENTALPATHOS.

A long time ago, in my curious research and quest for a deeper understanding about mental illness and psychology and such, i found, in my own observations and conclusions that - Schizophrenia - (mine) for example, is “piped” and created by humans, some groups of people pseudolly. That was way back in 2010. All the while, i have proof that whatever observations i have made was totally hitting the bullseyes, at least, that’s for me, but today, in 2024, i am very sure for my case, it is a BFG - “pseudolly piped schizophrenia” case.

As i look back today, i was either - mentally piped to be hearing all kinds of sounds and talking in my head about random stuff relating to my life OR I have to take antipsy-meds that blew me up +20–25kg down the path towards OBESITY.

I remember, when i have casual lunch with my sister, eating just grilled salmon and quinoa, i put on 2kg straightaway on the next morning. Within a month, my weight shot up to 5kg even though i was taking appetite suppressant Duromine daily and only eating 1 normal meal no deep fried no junk meal once a day only.

Today, i am also back to appetite suppressants all over this time with Phentermine 45mg, much stronger. During the 1st 3mths everything was going great, i was losing weight consistently. But starting the mid of the 3rd month in March 2024, i felt, somehow, my heartbeats which normally beat really fast (with the help from phentermine 45mg!) - now, no longer beat that fast, in fact, i could BARELY feel my heartbeat anymore! And so, i am no longer losing weight even though i am now no longer taking antipsy-meds.

Then yesterday night, while i was trying to sleep with the usual bunch of talking that was obviously piped and created by some groups of nasty beings, they make me feel extremely irritable and angry in my own rights. And so, i woke up feeling irritable and angry with the world once more, yet again, the nasty beings trying their best to create the angry monster out from a - Happy Me, mentally well Me, all over.

That’s not the end of my monstrous sharing yet, somehow, this nasty vile malicious group of people who piped monstrous thoughts to create nasty monster out of me, never fail to remind me repeatedly that - i am just another “Discard” that the creed doesn’t want, i am just a piece of junk that is deem useless by their elitist teams and in this piped dream with their nasty voices - they warned me - SHOULD I EVER WRITE OR POST ANYTHING LIKE THIS ON THE PUBLIC BLOGS OR PUBLIC ARENA, THEY WILL CHARGE ME TO THE COURT AND DRAG ME INTO MENTAL ASYLUM TO LOCK UP FOR GOOD AND FORCEFULLY GAVE ME ANTIPSY INJECTION DOWN MY VEINS - Because in their medical record book - it WAS CLEARLY STATED THAT I HAVE MENTAL ILLNESS - SCHIZO, and a mental illness person like myself should be locked up in mental hospital for good and not let roam about freely in the public lest i harm the public.

Guess what, for the past 18–20years that i have been living, or squatting, i have been a quiet reflective person mostly doing my own trivial stuff or hiding in my own home that’s all.

Previously, a long time ago, i used to be a bubbly happy cheerful person with lots of jokes to share around, however, some nasty groups of community people wil always spread rumours to the rest of the community that i am nothing but a nasty person. I have been so wronged too much, i stopped talking much to people anymore. I have been forced to withdraw back to my back facing the wall. If this is deja-vu huh.

As if this is not enough, in my own very silent world where i think to myself all the time, without talking, silently thinking about my dreams, things i would like to achieve and do, potential romance i would like to make, connections i would like to build - i have been once again, many times over - pseudolly nastily whacked/kicked in my face, brains, body or have been hard jabbed by needles all over my body OR have my body cut with a penknife- physically - WHEN i am just thinking very silently to MYSELF, in my own little world only.

Everyone has left, i have no more friends, all i have is my own silent thinking to myself only - yet, i have been abused all over 24/7 even in my own SILENT WORLD.

As if this is not enough, my nasty abusers told me in my silent pseudo world that they will follow me everywhere i will be going the world over and continue to create mental abuses in my silent world all over, including physical abuses and damages - WHENEVER THEY WANT OR WHENEVER THEY ARE HAPPY - BECAUSE THEY CAN.

All i wanted to do - is to escape this piped mental voices in my head and to find a new place where i will be given chances to do well in life - without the mental abuses inside my head or abuses physically or how my potential weight-loss is being so messed up all over. All i want is to be a normal heathy sane person who is trim and fit - living my life as i am, that’s all.